It’s been a reaaaalllly long time since I wrote in here. I was going to stop blogging here just because I really didn’t find the time to do so, and I’ve been journaling more. But, I decided to start again…not really sure why….so yeah lol

Anyhoo, this week, I really haven’t been feeling like myself. I’ve been kind of down and not as positive as I usually am. For those of you who didn’t know, I recently got married (about a month ago), and it’s been…interesting so far. My hubby works second shift; his hours are supposedly 6 PM-6AM, but many mornings, he doesn’t get off until 7, 8 or even 9. And when he gets home, he basically sleeps until he goes back to work. Oh, and he’s been working seven days…so, I’ve been getting really frustrated about the whole thing. Don’t get me wrong, I’m very happy that he works hard to provide for us, but I have to admit that I get sad/frustrated that I don’t get to spend as much time with him as I want. And I kinda feel bad about the way I feel because I feel like I’m being selfish…but it’s not like I want him to be home all day, I just want to be able to spend a few hours with him a week, and I just wish he could have at least one day off per week…that’s all. Don’t get it twisted though: Like I said, I’m happy that he does work, and I’m extremely grateful that he has a job, that we’re married and everything else is going smoothly…

And I really haven’t talked to him about it because it’s like, What can he do about it? So…I’ve just kind of been dealing with it by journaling basically. I’m really not sure how else to deal with it…I know I have to take some time to get my mind right though because I can’t keep feeling this way….it’s really not the business. I’ma work it out though!! ^_^

NIGHTNIGHT by DEDDY