I think I had an epiphany the other morning. I said I was going to write in here every week, so I was trying to think of what I could write about.

I was reading my affirmations. One of them states a dollar amount I will make each month this year. My thoughts started wondering after I was done reading them: “What’s holding me back from making the money?” As I was thinking, a thought popped into my head— other people’s expectations/thoughts.

See, I’m from a small town… In my opinion, a lot of family members don’t want to see anyone do too good, you know, going to college, graduating and getting a “normal”, “good” job is okay. Doing anymore than that is like, “Really? You ain’t gotta do all that!”

So as much as I hate to admit it to myself, I care when other people think when I think I’m “all that.” Why? I guess that while I am happy/proud(?) about my accomplishments, I don’t want to seem conceited and whatnot. So, to avoid this, {maybe} I’m not really using my full potential or I just don’t really talk about what I do.

Help me! How can I stop doing this???

NIGHTNIGHT by DEDDY